[Drawing] First Day

I trying to make a good picture to memorise a certain moment of my parents. But conversely this picture didn't satisfy me.

The vacation is short. I spend 2/3 of the holidays in studying English in Zhengzhou. Sometimes I doubt if I make a right dicision. But I know if I don't I would regret someday in the future. I can't just imagine my future and kept making plans but do nothing. I've no idea what things will be like in the days to come and I even can't make sure if I devote myself to the life I pursuied. What on earth do I care or look forward? I thought I was brave and steady but now I can't stop questioning myself if I really do what I planned. Maybe there's no plan at all. I changed them all the time. And I just imagine myself as a fighter. It seems I've already been prepared to fail.

The room my parents rent isn't that cold. I still try to adapt myself to the environment. Tomorrow my classes will begin and I don't know what will happen. Wish everything will be fine and just be exactly what I think.