[Drawing] Everyday is exactly the same

I get up early every morning then have some bread and a cup of coffee, read books, go online. When it is midday I have my lunch and go to sleep then have a cup of coffee and some desert after waking up. Then after I have my dinner at dorm around 4 PM I go on to read books, surf the net, see a film, take exercise at 8 PM then take a shower when coming back dorm. The next is reading books, going online or seeing a film then go to bed as usual...

That is the same circulation on different day. As NIN sang that 'Everyday is exactly the same'. So I drew a picture and painted it colorful.

The History of Rock 'N' Roll

I watched The History of Rock'n'Roll in these 2 days. After watching the first 4 episodes I'm really moved and understand lots of things that confused me before. These documentary films fill the blankets of the Rock'n' Roll history in my head. I really love rock music, however, constantly I can't understand the spirits behind the music for the lack of history knowledge. What is rock music? Why does rock become like this? Why there are so many people just crazy about the music all around the world? What does rock music bring to the people in Europe, America even the whole world?

Rock'n'Roll routed in the culture of blacks in America which developed from blues and R&B in late 1940s and the early 1950s. At first the rock music was just popular in black people. A few white people were attracted when some fabulous early black rock'n'roller performed the amazing music. Then some white American rock singer, like Elvis Presley made the rock'n'roll popular among the teenagers in 1950s. The parents were scared. They just didn't want their children touch anything about black people.

When black people performed this kind of music, the parents said okey. Because they didn't have so much influence on the white teenagers. But when Elvis Presley came out and started to play rock'n'toll the teenagers were crazy about him even copied his style. They just do a lot of things their parents never did. The parents then got furious and organized together to resist rock music. They accused rock music created a bad influence on teenagers and exerted great pressure upon the media and music companies not to put rock music on TV.

But nothing could barricaded the progress of rock music. Rock music actrually helped cease the barriers between white and black people. People didn't care about who you were, just listened what you were singing. Even we can say, there are no blues, R&B, Rock'n'Roll, just music. Everything is about music. This is the magic rock'n'roll created.

Then it came to 1960s. The beatles in England, Bob Dylan in America and plenty of fantastic rock bands showed up. All kinds of complicated movements including American civil rights movement inspired the musicians. We can see the pavement of the progress clearly in all kinds of fields. That gave us excitements today.

The History of Rock'n'Roll is not finished. I'll keep study and spread it.

[Photo] Corban Festival

Dec.9th was Corban Festival. I skipped a morning class and took part in the festival in Zhuhai with Ding. Moslem gathered around the mosque in Jida, downtown. Men aggregated in a public space beside the mosque while women assembled in the mosque. I was forbidden to step into the mosque because I'm not a moslem.
This uygur man was very pious from the beginning till the end. Zhuhai is very far from Xinjiang where most of the uygur people live. This uygur man was so conspicuous that I could see him in the crowd of people. At first I thought he was serious and was afraid to look at him. But after the religious service finished he smiled at me and said hello to me in Uigur when we walked in the crowd. I was taken aback for a second then said hello to him immediately. He waved his hands with a big smile on his face and said hello to me too. That was really amazing. This moslem kid kept being sad in the religious service. I stood beside him and filmed him with my DV. The saddness froze in his face. He looked around with silence. His mysterious parents never showed. Sometime his friends came to him and played with him. It seemed a lot of stories hid behind his back.
This father playing with his boy maybe was the most warm scene then. They laughed all the time. That boy even crawled on his father's back.
This man seemed came from the Middle East. He held that pose for a long time. When he saw I was filming him he smiled at me. I waved back with a smiling face.
These two boys sat there. I asked the boy in blue cloths if they wanted to taken pictures. He was happy to be in my photo. But at that moment the boy in white cap had a badly stomach-ache. I comforted him but had no idea what to do. The boy in blue cloths called his brother and friends. Then they left. I saw the boys later. The boy seemed be OK.
The moslem greeted to each other with special Arabic on Corban Festival. I like nan very much. Moslem could get some for free on Corban Festival.

I felt uncomfortable among the men for being the only woman there.
Moslem could donate their money to the mosque.

This uygur boy was very handsome.

Ding is a moslem. I learned a lot of Islamic stuff from him. By and by I kinda understood the taugh situation of the moslem in China especially in Zhuhai. The majority of people around the world don't know what happend among them.I determined to make a documentary film from then on. This is not an easy subject. I know. But I'll try my best to collaborated with Ding. Ding's family is really complicated. Plenty of dramatic stories just happened in his family. We have to clear our minds and collect the best materials to make up this film.

[Photo] Responsibility

A kind of local soft drink in Guangzhou cost 1 Yuan. The price is the same as Coco Cola drinks but the bottle is bigger. It taste nice.

The Oyster Shell House in Xiaozhou village besides Guangzhou in China was made of ancient oyster shells. That can date back to Ming Dynasty. And there are a lot of oyster shell houses in that village.

It was more than a month since went to last time. Looking at those photos makes me wanna travel. But I haven't money and time. The phrase 'smile without mirth' I saw yesterday maybe is the best discription of my face. Just like a bird can't fly with heavy burden on its back. I wish I could stay at a campus no matter as a student or teacher. Only if I could not touch the outside society.

The classes are boring for most of the teachers are whiling away us and their own time. The lack of responsibility made them despised. After all we students are the victims. We can't get good education. We are on our own. And I have no time to feel desperate.

Yesterday Ding and I went out having dinner. He was anxious for a lot of things. I wanna help but there's nothing I could do. We all felt exhausted with nothing to say. We just looked at each other on the bus. Those intermittent smiles were tired. After coming back to dorm we chatted on net. I apologized to him for not comforting him when he was suffering. He was happy and moved. I felt I did the right thing. This quiet communication was really good. He's a brittle person with a fragile heart. I don't want him to feel abandoned or lonely. Sometimes I wanna a person to rely on. Even though most of the time Ding is not that kind of person it can't barricade me to love him. I think that is a problem of time. A man can grow mature and responsible to his girl.

It is only the last month before this semester ends. Time elapse fast.

[Drawing] Your Head Is Not Playground

Your head is not a playground that whoever can run on it.

For reading a lot of books recently I trapped in a sort of fear of being influenced by other people's thoughts. That's exactly not the excuse to flee the reading stuff. What I refer to is the fear of following other people's traces. By and by I can't create something new by myself. That is a real tragedy.

The renowned Iran director Abbas said the use of learning all the theories is avoiding using them. That quite make a lot of sense to me.

[Photo] Brake The Time

Standing in the building on the peak, Hong Kong, I and Yoyo Looked down at the whole city from the glass. The glass reflected the elevator. This is the city which never sleeps.

An old Christian missionized his faith in Mong Kok, HongKong. He stood in the middle of the street holding that board for several hours till the evening came. He kept that pose as the stream of people flowed by him.

Most of the residential buildings in Hong Kong are very much alike. They are huge and have plenty of windows which means thousands of people living up there. I think residential buildings can be one of the symbols of Hong Kong.

I and my friend Yoyo went to Hong Kong at the beginning of July, 2008. During that trip I took a lot of photos and purchased a lot of stuff. If we students went to the right places to shop, things can be quite cheap with good quality. Because of the tight fund we couldn't consume very expensive meals. We went to Mcdonald's quite a lot and the local tea resterants to eat some simple meals. That dind't bother us at all. On the contrary, we felt kinda relieved.

Hong Kong is a huge city with limited land. What impressive me most is how this city can be so well managed with a large population and under such complecated circumstances. In this city, people have good manners; the streets are clean; modern and tradition are well bonded. Isn't that amazing? In terms of order, there're wide gaps between the cities in the mainland and Hong Kong. That's also the reason why I highly recommended my mom to visit Hong Kong.

Well...Hong Kong part is over. I'll keep talking my recent life. I hadn't written this blog for a long time becouse having no idea of what to say. The days passed just like drinking a glass of water. No special taste and really simple. This semester will end 4 weeks later. That makes me nervous. I wish I could slow down the time just like brake a car...

[Photo] Childhood

Guangzhou Zoo













Numbers of partridges lined up and happily swam on the lake of Guangzhou Zoo, China.

A group of kids in the kindergarten following their teachers visited Guangzhou Zoo in China.

For most of the time I wish I could go back to childhood. I was very naughty when I was a child. It was me always called for other girls and led them to play very manly games. We had a lot of fights with boys. Number of sticks were gathered to fiight against them. Because of me, we won a lot. That made me proud. For showing my power and ability, I invited them all to my house then made a mess of the furnitures and other things. My mom are really pissed off. But nothing can stop me. I thought it was quite fun when I was a kid.