[Photo] Responsibility

A kind of local soft drink in Guangzhou cost 1 Yuan. The price is the same as Coco Cola drinks but the bottle is bigger. It taste nice.

The Oyster Shell House in Xiaozhou village besides Guangzhou in China was made of ancient oyster shells. That can date back to Ming Dynasty. And there are a lot of oyster shell houses in that village.

It was more than a month since went to last time. Looking at those photos makes me wanna travel. But I haven't money and time. The phrase 'smile without mirth' I saw yesterday maybe is the best discription of my face. Just like a bird can't fly with heavy burden on its back. I wish I could stay at a campus no matter as a student or teacher. Only if I could not touch the outside society.

The classes are boring for most of the teachers are whiling away us and their own time. The lack of responsibility made them despised. After all we students are the victims. We can't get good education. We are on our own. And I have no time to feel desperate.

Yesterday Ding and I went out having dinner. He was anxious for a lot of things. I wanna help but there's nothing I could do. We all felt exhausted with nothing to say. We just looked at each other on the bus. Those intermittent smiles were tired. After coming back to dorm we chatted on net. I apologized to him for not comforting him when he was suffering. He was happy and moved. I felt I did the right thing. This quiet communication was really good. He's a brittle person with a fragile heart. I don't want him to feel abandoned or lonely. Sometimes I wanna a person to rely on. Even though most of the time Ding is not that kind of person it can't barricade me to love him. I think that is a problem of time. A man can grow mature and responsible to his girl.

It is only the last month before this semester ends. Time elapse fast.